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Tabby Ivy's avatar

I was on the board of a Abie House, a home for abused women. what you describe is text book, Tonya. I know you know this. I think it's time to delete his voice from your phone.

powerful, honest writing. bravo

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Sue Cauhape's avatar

Oh how easily we are manipulated when we are young and hopeful. You tell so brilliantly the pain so many of us have felt, trying to make a love gone wrong work. What's really maddening here, though, is how he strung you along, making you the one causing the problems, relentlessly. He death was yet another manipulation. "See what you've done to me. You've killed me." Oh Tonya, I know how difficult it is to remember all these painful things and write about them. The purging of them with every word. To read here how you take upon the guilt for his death, his choice of shooting you down again, is so agonizing. Some day you will be free of it all. May it be soon that you will be flooded with joy. It is your due.

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